What Have I Done?
Jan. 11th, 2010 12:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raeschaeSo here's the thing . . . I'm kind of impulsive sometimes. And sometimes I tell myself that there's a risk out there I should be taking, that it'll be good for me, so I leap . . . and then realize I forgot the parachute. Not literally, of course - I'm not a complete idiot.
Ugh . . . Last Monday, I thought 'I'm going to do art for Big Bang this year. I can handle that. It's on a deadline, but I can knock art out faster than a story, so what's the big?' I was happy with my plan . . . My plan and I were makin' out slow and lazy on the couch with no pressure to go any further.
And then this morning, I woke up with a story idea and the knowledge that today is Big Bang sign up . . . so what did I do? I signed up to write a fuckin' Big Bang! Of course I did. She who shies away from all community prompts and challenges due to a paralyzing deadline phobia decided to put herself on the biggest deadline of them all.
Because apparently my brain has fallen out of my ear and been crushed into tiny pieces by stampeding elephants. Er, or something. Whatever happened to it, I have clearly lost my mind. And will probably lose my hair and my sense of humor by June. I need a drink. Possibly some dirty, random sex with a stranger. And that big blanket my mom used to wrap around me when I was crying over a boy in high school.
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vamphile has already assured me that I won't be blacklisted from ever posting to LJ again if I suck this up entirely. And ldyghstwhisprer is saving my ass by making me an inspirational fanmix for the story. Anybody else who wants to be a part of this, get your whips and pom poms ready. No, we're not making porn. At least, not right now. I'm going to need cheering and ass kicking . . . and possibly some hand-holding. And if anyone has one of those little brown sandwich bags they'd like to hold while I try to regulate my breathing, that'd be awesome.
Ugh . . . Last Monday, I thought 'I'm going to do art for Big Bang this year. I can handle that. It's on a deadline, but I can knock art out faster than a story, so what's the big?' I was happy with my plan . . . My plan and I were makin' out slow and lazy on the couch with no pressure to go any further.
And then this morning, I woke up with a story idea and the knowledge that today is Big Bang sign up . . . so what did I do? I signed up to write a fuckin' Big Bang! Of course I did. She who shies away from all community prompts and challenges due to a paralyzing deadline phobia decided to put herself on the biggest deadline of them all.
Because apparently my brain has fallen out of my ear and been crushed into tiny pieces by stampeding elephants. Er, or something. Whatever happened to it, I have clearly lost my mind. And will probably lose my hair and my sense of humor by June. I need a drink. Possibly some dirty, random sex with a stranger. And that big blanket my mom used to wrap around me when I was crying over a boy in high school.
vamphile has already assured me that I won't be blacklisted from ever posting to LJ again if I suck this up entirely. And ldyghstwhisprer is saving my ass by making me an inspirational fanmix for the story. Anybody else who wants to be a part of this, get your whips and pom poms ready. No, we're not making porn. At least, not right now. I'm going to need cheering and ass kicking . . . and possibly some hand-holding. And if anyone has one of those little brown sandwich bags they'd like to hold while I try to regulate my breathing, that'd be awesome.
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Date: 2010-01-11 05:56 pm (UTC)so here's the deal. Breathe. *hands rae a paper bag*
type.
check your word count obsessively.
it's big bang, yo... you ain't the only one scared.
also, we love you so you as long as we get some disclaimer and creative control timestamps as well as maybe a new story, while you're working... we'll love you even more and wouldn't ban you from LJ even if we could!
my point?
I want my timestamps!
oh, and you'll be FINE.
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Date: 2010-01-11 06:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 06:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 06:19 pm (UTC)You can do it!! *jumps around on speed*
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Date: 2010-01-11 06:31 pm (UTC)Lisa
x
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Date: 2010-01-11 07:32 pm (UTC)You'll get your time stamps. Hopefully soon. Beginning next week, if all goes well. And I don't have a panic attack and die or something. Either/or.
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Date: 2010-01-11 07:33 pm (UTC)I love you.
That is all.
Oh, and thank you.
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Date: 2010-01-11 07:35 pm (UTC)Either way, thanks! I need all the cheering I can get. :)
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Date: 2010-01-11 07:37 pm (UTC)Wait, are you doing it? Your fic last year was so good - I just recced it to someone at Christmas time.
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Date: 2010-01-11 07:39 pm (UTC)We're gonna have to keep each other sane, man! You jump, I jump, baby. ;)
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Date: 2010-01-11 07:41 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 08:43 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 08:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 09:03 pm (UTC):)
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Date: 2010-01-11 09:04 pm (UTC)Here we go!!!!
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Date: 2010-01-11 09:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 09:27 pm (UTC)I signed up today too XD and i'm still not sure what i wanna do :D
for needing some hand-holding, let me know when you need it :)
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Date: 2010-01-11 09:31 pm (UTC)meep! no dying, or you know, somethinging.
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:35 pm (UTC)Besides, if I die, who will carry on the CreativeControl Verse?
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:36 pm (UTC)I get it, man. I have the beginning and middle, but I have no idea how mine's gonna end, either. Maybe we should start a trend where we just stop with the middle and let everyone make up their own ending?
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:36 pm (UTC)Also available for arse-kicking.
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 10:38 pm (UTC)My new advice to anyone who is considering is DON'T - it's not worth the panic. Or totally do it, because it'll be worth it in the end. Hell, what do I know - I'm a total virgin at this. Yikes, yikes, yikes!
If you do decide to do it, know that you have a total cheerleader right here!
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:39 pm (UTC)I think we can, I think we can, I think we can!
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 10:41 pm (UTC)Second, feel free to whip as hard as I fight back . . . I can be kind of stubborn. :)
And the same goes for me - if you need it, let me know. I should start needing mine as soon as I put my thoughts in order and realize just HOW in over my head I really am. ;)
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:41 pm (UTC)And thanks!
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:43 pm (UTC)nevermind that there's also the small matter of entertaining ME!
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:47 pm (UTC)Except you made me promise not to die - so what? I'm writing Disclaimer and Creative Control forever? That's a long time, yo.
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 10:50 pm (UTC)*nods*
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Date: 2010-01-11 10:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 10:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-11 11:00 pm (UTC)I'm actually working on my outline right now, so when I get to the end, I'll let you know and see what you think!
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Date: 2010-01-11 11:07 pm (UTC)yeah as soon as you need it, you know where you can find me :D
btw, that icon, i got it from big-bang comm XD there is lots of funny icons
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Date: 2010-01-11 11:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-12 12:52 am (UTC)I can't wait to see what you come up with!
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Date: 2010-01-12 02:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-12 08:27 am (UTC)Well, considering I have loved everything you have written so far and you are, hands down, one of the fastest writers on my Friends List I am sure you can do it!!!
Sadly I have absolutely no artistic talent for writing whatsoever so I'm just gonna go with...
****MORE ENCOURAGING CHEERING!!!****
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Date: 2010-01-12 03:22 pm (UTC)It made my ENTIRE DAY to hear that you're doing it! And don't worry, you are in incredible writer, and there's no way you will not hit it out of the park. :D
If you ever want someone to bounce ideas off of or generally stroke your ego, I'm happy to help. :D
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Date: 2010-01-12 03:32 pm (UTC)I'm planning on starting it just as soon as I finish the next Disclaimer Time Stamp, which I'm working on as we speak.
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Date: 2010-01-12 03:34 pm (UTC)I'm fast because I don't post anything until it's finished - if you saw the bulk of story ideas that I have started and then lost momentum on? *shudders*
Anywho, I'll take all the cheering I can get, so thank you!
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Date: 2010-01-12 03:38 pm (UTC)You've got my email, right? Seriously, USE IT. I'm not doing the big bang, but I'd love to help out, especially since a) it's you, and b) INDIE ROCK? WHAT KIND OF KICK ASS STORY LINE IS THIS??? :D :D :D
YAY DISCLAIMER. :D
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Date: 2010-01-12 04:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-12 08:15 pm (UTC)*hands the paper bag* :)
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Date: 2010-01-12 08:57 pm (UTC)Keep the bag on hand - we're nowhere near May yet. Fuck only knows how many times I might need it between now and then. :)