A Thanks and a Little Something I Stole . . .

[raeschae]

My mother used to say that Mondays are an important part of the week because they help us appreciate all of the other days that don't suck so much. If that's the case, the rest of this week is going to be awesome.

Anyway - first, and most important, thanks to kiwiana and plastacine_star for the squirrels. They're either in love, or fighting and about to break each other's heart, but either way, it's wicked cool to know y'all were thinkin' of me, so thanks!

And one last thing, since I'm a total thief sometimes . . . I'm stealing this from kiwiana (I hope she doesn't press charges):

Ask me a question about one of my stories. It can be absolutely anything in any fic and I will tell you the honest-to-god answer. Don’t hold back. Ask about my plans for future parts of a current series if you want to, but keep in mind that I may not have anything firm/definite in the works. Anything. Whatever you ask, I will try my best to answer.

I try not to talk too much about the creation of my stories, because I usually figure "who cares why I do what I do, let's just read the finished product!" But I'm feeling like gabbing about something, so this seems interesting.

Hope y'all have a great day!

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[raeschae.livejournal.com]

I love that you have questions about Jared's past. Simply for the reason that he prefers it stay there, in the past, until he has no choice but to address it, I leave it there. That's not to say you won't ever see it come back again. Especially if I find a reason to drag the boys back to Texas one of these days.

To answer your questions, though, Jared spent a lot of time getting bounced around the system. The first home he was in was good, but then his foster mom got pregnant with a baby of her own and couldn't keep him anymore. There were some good families who did their best by him, but sometimes their own finances dictated that they couldn't take care of him anymore, or other issues arose that made it difficult to keep a child that wasn't theirs in the house.

He was in a couple of abusive situations, but that wasn't the majority. And a lot of times, especially after he turned eleven or twelve, it wasn't really the family's fault that they didn't keep him. He was acting out a lot - angry and lost. He picked a lot of fights, and partied pretty hard. He was, in short, a handful.

He had a couple of families that probably would have kept him - one in particular that I mention in that section of the first story when he tells Jensen that he loves him. I think they were good to him, and the story says that it's one of the few times Jared regrets he messed a situation up. By that time, he'd grown uncomfortable around people who really did care about him, and was uncertain as to who he could trust and who was going to turn on him later.

Overall, he was a talented kid who just didn't fit in the world he was forced to live in. There was no place for him, no family that felt like his own. Sometimes people ask me why Jared is the one who adopted Brayden - why not Jensen, when Jared had such a distant reaction to him in the beginning. It's because Jared remembers too well what it's like not to belong anywhere, and not to have anything. He spent a lot of years being told by the State that there was nobody that wanted him, that there was no family that wanted him at the time. Adopting Brayden is his way of turning around and saying 'Fuck all y'all.' He fights to give that kid everything he wished somebody gave him, everything they didn't even know he wanted.

And yeah, to answer your question, Jensen was not only the first person that Jared ever said he loved, but he was also the first person who said it to Jared. At least, the first person he ever really heard and believed when they said it.