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Title: Confessions on a Dancefloor
Author: [livejournal.com profile] raeschae
Character(s)/Pairing: Jared/Jensen (mentioned)
Theme: Theme 04: Lover's Rock
Prompt(s): #14 - Dance
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Summary: Jensen believes that what he wants and what he deserves are two separate things. Apparently, he's the only one who believes it.

Warnings/Author Notes: This would have been up sooner but Matt Bomer is distractingly attractive. Damn White Collar.



Though he doesn't often admit it, Jensen likes hanging out in a good club with a hot bass line thrumming through his chest while he drinks just enough to forget that he can't actually dance. It's not about the rhythm or knowing all the moves. It's about taking to the floor, pressed in close to a hundred other sweating bodies, and knowing that someone out there is watching him move. It doesn't matter who that someone is, or even if they never have a conversation. What matters is being spotted, watched, and wanted.

With his tee shirt tucked into his back pocket and Ian draped over his back, Jensen forces himself not to think about Jared, or the fact that he bailed on hanging out at the coffee shop tonight to come out with Ian and Alona. Jared's an awesome guy, whatever they have going right now is really fucking good, but this is a part of who Jensen is and what he loves. He can't give that up because he's spent three of the last five nights at Jared's place.

To be fair, Jared hasn't asked him for anything. He hasn't even really talked about what they do at night. In the morning, he still watches with the girls through the window. When Jensen stops in during the day, they flirt like they did before, like nothing has changed at all. Even after they've fucked around for awhile, he just kind of kicks back and lets Jensen decide if he's going to stay or go without ever offering his opinion on the matter either way.

“You've got an audience,” Ian says against his ear, but there's no intent like there would be if Jared was here with him.

As soon as Jensen thinks it, he blinks his eyes and pushes his ass back against Ian. This is why he's here. Over at the bar, a decent-looking guy in leather pants isn't even trying to hide the interest in his eyes as Jensen raises one arm and loops it around Ian's neck. He drops his head back and pulls one of Ian's arms around his waist until the flat of his palm is resting against Jensen's bare stomach.

When he looks again, the guy sort of lifts his glass in a toast and then barely nods toward the empty stool at his left. Jensen responds by turning and resting both hands on the back of Ian's neck while riding his thigh.

Ian studies him, expression knowing and amused. “You've got it bad, huh?”

“What?” Jensen can hear him just fine, but he moves closer anyway.

The huff of Ian's breath on his neck feels good against the sweat dampening his skin. “You're such a fucking tease, man.” He pulls back again and shakes his head at the feigned innocence on Jensen's face. “You wanna head out? I could go for a coffee.”

Jensen tightens his hold and presses his chest to Ian's, bodies still rocking even though they're clearly not actually dancing anymore. “It's only eleven,” Jensen reminds him. They've only been here twenty minutes and Jensen has no intention of leaving until he can barely walk his dance-numbed legs out of this club.

Ian has this infuriating little smirk that drives Jensen crazy. Sometimes it's the good kind of crazy, but right now it's falling short of sexy. “Jared's a good guy. Seems interested in more than your ass.” To accentuate his point, he gives said ass a squeeze with both hands. “Nothin' wrong with bein' into him, ya know?”

“Oh, I know,” Jensen assures him, grinding down on Ian's thigh with a moan. “Thing is, you can never have too much of a good thing, man,” There is no doubt that Jensen really likes Jared, but the feeling of Ian's body against his is good, too. Maybe it's not as good, but it's enough right now.

Ian just rolls his eyes. Jensen excels at a few things, but posturing is definitely toward the top of the list. It's one of those things he's been doing for so long, it's become second nature and Ian can spot it before Jensen even starts doing it.

“Jensen, man.” He laughs and shakes his head, distancing himself a few inches again. “When are you gonna start lettin' yourself off the hook, huh?” Framing Jensen's face with both hands, he leans their foreheads together and smiles again. “Jared's got the seal of approval from all of us. You let him get away 'cause you're still hung up on shit that happened forever ago? I will kick your fuckable ass. Are we clear?”

He punctuates the question by dropping a quick kiss on Jensen's mouth and then leaving him alone in the middle of the dance floor.

It's great in theory, the idea that he can just put everything behind him and jump on this chance to actually have what he wants to have with Jared. He's just not sure that it's what he deserves. He's absolutely sure it's far less than Jared deserves.

He stands there, mindlessly moving to a beat he's not listening to anymore, until Leather Pants catches his periphery. Twenty minutes ago, the predatory stare and the feeling of that warm hand on his bare back would have been a charge. Now it feels like it's weighing him down.

Turning, Jensen smiles a little and shakes his head at the guy. “Sorry. I, uh. I gotta go.”

At the bar, Ian salutes and Alona hugs him when Jensen tells them that he has somewhere better to be. He's not ready to admit that his friends might be right or anything, but the only eyes he wants watching him move right now are Jared's.

An Unexpected Turn

Date: 2010-08-01 05:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] goldie3.livejournal.com
Oh Jensen. Something in his past is holding him back, I wonder what. And I'm really curious now.

And Ian is such a nice guy. Jared and Jensen totally belong together, everyone knows it except them. Amazing verse, as amazing as a cup of good coffee ;)

Date: 2010-08-01 05:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
Your curiosity makes me :D

I'm glad you're still enjoying it! (And answers will be coming shortly.)

Date: 2010-08-01 06:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mr-mrs-faxsea.livejournal.com
~I will kick your fuckable ass.~
lol!
I love this verse! And I love the fact that you give us something new every day.
-S-

Date: 2010-08-01 05:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm afraid people are going to start feeling spammed or something, but as long as you're reading, I'll keep writing!

Date: 2010-08-01 06:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aythia.livejournal.com
Aww, now I kinda like Ian :D

And Jensen giving Jared a private danceshow? Yeah, I kinda like that idea :D

Date: 2010-08-01 05:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
:D Oh, the mental image. I like that idea, too!!

Date: 2010-08-01 07:13 am (UTC)

Date: 2010-08-01 05:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
Back atcha.

Date: 2010-08-01 07:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] deansgirl7107.livejournal.com
Very smart move Jensen....The first step is realize what u want and go for it....Good ...Do it....Its Yours.


It was good and sexy.
Thanks
More..

Date: 2010-08-01 05:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
I'm workin' on more right now! Glad you're likin' it!!!

Date: 2010-08-01 11:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] callistosh65.livejournal.com
Ooooo.. I like the hint of darkness in Jensen's past now. This is a terrific verse you have here, I hope you know that:))

Date: 2010-08-01 05:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
I'm glad you're still liking it - it's just so much fun to write!!

Date: 2010-08-01 02:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blackpanther07.livejournal.com
I wonder what happened to Jensen? You will let us know right? This is a brilliant verse, I love it.

Date: 2010-08-01 05:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
I will absolutely let you know. Soon, I promise.

Date: 2010-08-01 02:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] getupandgo-25.livejournal.com
Reading this while drinking an iced coffee from starbucks I'm such a sucker for those which leads me to this quote “Thing is, you can never have too much of a good thing" lol

Date: 2010-08-01 06:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
And now I really want iced coffee from Starbucks. Java Chip is my current obsession. Mmmm. You can never have too much of a good thing, but you can have too much Java Chip at one time. I learned that the hard way. :D

Date: 2010-08-01 03:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] imaginethehappy.livejournal.com
OH Jensen you silly boy..

Love that his friends are like "how bout you just take the good that you're getting?"

Also: what [livejournal.com profile] kiwiana said---> *swoon!*

Date: 2010-08-01 06:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
I think everyone should have a friend who sees what's best when he can't. We're all a little dumb when things are too close to home, right?

Date: 2010-08-01 04:24 pm (UTC)
tabaqui: (j2psilubybittersweet_art)
From: [personal profile] tabaqui
Awwwww!
*pets him*

You deserve it, silly! :)

Date: 2010-08-01 06:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
Everybody deserves a little Jared in their life, I think. ;)

Date: 2010-08-01 05:12 pm (UTC)
ext_56399: (ACTOR - Jensen fedora wearing Jensen)
From: [identity profile] plasticine-star.livejournal.com
Guh! sweaty flirty Jensen with Ian draped all over him? yea, I'm liking that visual.

Can't wait to see what happens when Jensen finds Jared. ;)

Date: 2010-08-01 06:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
*sigh* I like the visual, too. I'm so tempted to do a prequel of the two of them just having a lot of unattached, dirty sex. I won't, but they have a whole naked backstory in my head.

BTW, it is my firm belief that more people should be wearing fedoras these days.

Date: 2010-08-01 06:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
See what I mean?

Date: 2010-08-01 05:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mdlaw.livejournal.com
Yeah Jensen It's about time you bought a clue. m :)

Date: 2010-08-01 06:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
He's getting there. :)

Date: 2010-08-01 06:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] enablelove.livejournal.com
Awwwwwww. I love that last line.

Yay Ian for getting Jensen to understand :D

Date: 2010-08-01 06:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
I'm glad you liked the last line - I don't even know how many times I re-wrote it to make it sound less-cheesy. :)

Ian's not so bad when he's not making Jared jealous!

Date: 2010-08-01 07:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heather03nmg.livejournal.com
You always rock my world! Thanks for the speedy updates!!

Date: 2010-08-01 09:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gemini8.livejournal.com
Oh you're a tease! (in a good way!) ;)

Date: 2010-08-02 12:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
I really am. :)

Date: 2010-08-02 08:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kskitten.livejournal.com
Yay! Loved this. All those insecurities and posturing and really, we know who belongs with Jensen. Glad he sorta realizes it too!

Date: 2010-08-02 10:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raeschae.livejournal.com
:D Thank you!

Date: 2011-01-22 06:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vanessawolfie.livejournal.com
off to find out about Jensen's past ! I love this 'verse!!!

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