I'm kind of friggin' speechless right now . . .

[raeschae]

So I haven't had much to say, or post, lately. A few oners here and there, but I've been mostly keeping to myself. Well, keeping to myself and bugging the hell out of a few of you. This is because I've been on a roll with my Big Bang story. Yeah, the one I was freaking out about less than a month ago.

I was totally prepared to put it on the back burner and forget about it until, like, April. Ready to freak the fuck out, quite frankly, when the deadline was approaching and I was nowhere near done. I am absolutely terrible with deadlines. My pictures2words entry? I didn't even start on until two days before it was due. Procrastination is usually my middle name.

So mark your calendars because this? This is a shocking day, more than likely never to be seen again. Today, February 1st, I finished the first draft of my Big motherfuckin' Bang. It's about 500 words shy of 30K and I think it's pretty good. I love this incarnation of the boys a lot, and taintedlove and ldyghstwhisprer have both assembled the most kick-ass soundtracks for my inspiration.

Of course, now I have three months to sit on this thing and not say anything about it. Also, to freak out and decide that it's all bull shit and I should just start over with a new concept - so don't celebrate for me yet. I may still be pulling my hair out and cursing this deadline by April. ;)

As of now, though, I'm walking on air. I know y'all don't know how big this is for me, but I suck at commitment and deadlines and boundaries. I feel like this is a pretty big accomplishment for me.

Now I can start working on some stuff that can actually be posted in the meantime. Next up, for those of you who might be wondering, is a Disclaimer OneShot, and then possibly another Creative Control timestamp. And I think I'm going to start cultivating an old idea for a chapter story dealing with some overtly religious themes.

For now, I'm going to take a nap. I kinda feel like I earned it.

Comments

[little-jenny25.livejournal.com]

See? Jensen told you so. (http://pics.livejournal.com/little_jenny25/pic/00031pyr)

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

That he did, and he was right.

Thanks!

[little-jenny25.livejournal.com]

Jensen Ackles is always right. He's like Chuck Norris, only way sexier!

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

Dude, someone should totally write a fic where Jensen IS Chuck Norris. And they should totally call it Jensen Ackles, Texas Ranger. Or maybe I have now exhausted every bit of creativity left in my brain and should just shut the hell up now. ;)

[rhianne.livejournal.com]

Dude, someone should totally write a fic where Jensen IS Chuck Norris.

Want. Now. ::melts::

;-)

[lasvegas-lights.livejournal.com]

lucky you!!! how about helping me with mine! lol i'm totally stuck on chapter two, just can't seem to get it written :( can't wait to read yours, I bet it's awesome

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

I would honestly be happy to help in any way I can. Shoot me an e-mail if you want, let me know where you're stuck, and I'll see what I can do! (raeschae at gmail)

[vamphile.livejournal.com]

so motherfuckin' proud of you and wicked jealous.

i'm 6K into mine and doubting every word.

YAY YOU!

also, i just finished the last bit. it's totally kick ass.

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

For that, you get Jensen lips!

And you can doubt every word if you want, but there's not a doubt in my mind. You rock out loud, and your fic can't help but do likewise.

[vamphile.livejournal.com]

♥

i took my nap, now you go take yours.

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

I'm trying, but I'm kind of wired. I need to find a way to unwind.

[vamphile.livejournal.com]

don't tell me things like that, my brain goes to bad bad good bad places.

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

Hm . . . what places would those be?

[vamphile.livejournal.com]

good so very very good bad

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

God, that icon makes me think good, bad, good, bad, bad thoughts. Just . . . that's a good body to have.

[vamphile.livejournal.com]

with good arms and everything.

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

Arms are good. Legs are good. Nice and long and . . . he's very firm.

[vamphile.livejournal.com]

and don't forget his smile, it's part of what makes him so sexy.

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

The smile's a big part - the dimples . . . oh, the dimples.

The sum may be greater than the parts, but the parts do NOT suck. I'm just sayin'.

[kubis.livejournal.com]

Wow, that's awesome! You did fantastic! :D Congratulations!

And I can't wait for the timestamps, especially for the Disclaimer verse :)

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm kind of excited myself!

And the Disclaimer timestamp is next on the docket. I have the idea - I just have to find the words. Should be up soon, though - keep an eye out for it!

[strangeallure.livejournal.com]

Congratulations!

I don't envy you the forced holding period, but it might help you with editing - because it really allows you to take a step back, take a break and come back later to re-evaluate. (BUT NOT SCRAPE IT AND TEAR YOUR HAIR OUT, OK?)

I hope your creativity levels stay up, and I look forward to the Creative Control timestamp in particular.

Happy napping, happy writing!

Don't mess with your hair.

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

I'm kind of in shock right now - and wondering if I didn't leave huge sections out because it can't possibly just be done. The plan, as of now, is to set it on the back burner for a couple of weeks and then come back and look at it with fresh eyes. It's one of the really nice things about having some time, I think.

And no worries - my hair is staying just like it is. I couldn't actually bring myself to rip it out because, well, ouch.

[peculiar-mind.livejournal.com]

congrats! I'm around 10k right now, probably would be much further but I got sick :(

more Disclaimer and Creative control you say? that is so freaking awesome news XD I can't wait

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

Well, now it's my turn to grab the pom poms and cheer YOU on! You're half-way there, and you've still got three months, right? That's not so shabby!

And yeah, timestamps shall be forthcoming - probably in the next couple of weeks!

[peculiar-mind.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'm kind of afraid that my story grows little too huge for me. the fact that I'm around 10k and the day hasn't even ended in it, is kind of fucked up *sigh*

but hopefully my beta is awesome and will be honest with my story (I found beta who ain't my friend so she has no reason to try act as one, lol)

anyway, I can't wait to get read some timestamps, it means that I have good excuse to take break XD

[adventuresofsam.livejournal.com]

YAY for Big Bang fic being first-draft-ised!!!!

***Jumping up and down with cheerleading pom poms***

I'm sure it's great. And double YAY for timestamps - woo hoo!!

(I'm slightly medicated at the moment so excuse ramblyness)

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

I totally understand the medicated ramblyness!

And thanks! I'm kind of excited myself!

[des-prismes.livejournal.com]

Yeah *wave pompoms and dance a little in my office*

Can't wait to read it :)

[raeschae.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I can't wait to post it!